So here i am again, updating my journal for the first time in ages. I always seem to update this when i'm not feeling too good. But i really must get back into art again. I'm doing media production at Lincoln university atm and i'm doing a design and visual communications module for this simester. Starting to think im on the wrong course but i'll stick it out and maybe do a 3D design course later in life when i have time and money on my hands. Im not sure yet. Its really hard to get on with people atm. Not because im a moody cunt or anything but beacsue i have all these ideas and no one will listen to me and nothings getting done. That's why i love my design and visual communications work so much. Becausae it's all individual i can do what i want when i want and its my magazine, i can make it look just how i want it. Oh well, thats my rant of the day over. I've stopped eating again in an attempt to loose some weight and i think im gonna go to the gym later. Will be fun nearly passing out as i havent been in a while. Dont even know if i have any clean gym clothes. Oh well, it's wednesday tomoz and i only have one lecture so will get a fiver from the bank and do several hundred loads including 2 loads of bedding, will take me soo long to get dried but at least i'll have clean clothes to wear. Will definately stay on top of it it in the future. I also need a job, no where will employ me and i have virtually no money left. I dont understand. Oh well, wen i have my million pound contract i will be alright. I can just live off the interest, then i will be happpy...